I’ve been really struggling lately to express my thoughts into words. Every single time I would try to write something I would fail, even if in the back of my mind I had a world filled with words that wanted to say. It was like I couldn’t be myself anymore. It got to a point where I believed that I won’t be able to write again and I hated the idea because my ocean of words never really vanished or faded away, I just simply didn’t know how to access it anymore.
My life has been a series of transitions this past year. For one thing, I’ve officially entered the world of adulthood as I am now a University student. Though I’ve wished for this moment for the past year and a half, when it actually started I’ve found myself being more confused. The transition from high school to University was one of the biggest changes I’ve ever had to face and I’m still in that process. The first week of University filled my mind with numerous questions such as “Am I able to accumulate so much information?” “Am I good enough to get my degree?” “Am I ready for this?”. With all these questions though, I’ve never felt that I didn’t belong there. I was able to find people who share the same interests as I do, who understand me in so many ways and also teachers who are willing to expand our world of knowledge. I’ve also started doing YouTube videos this past August. A dream finally came true. For years I’ve wondered if I should do it or not. I’ve doubted myself, that I will be able to put myself out there. You know what they say: you are your worst enemy. In the end, indeed, I could and this experience brought me a new passion and also brought me out of my comfort zone.
As the seasons change, I’m changing along with them. I’m maturing and becoming a woman. I’ve promised myself that throughout all of this I’ll never let go of my childhood self, that I’ll cherish it until the end because after all, it’s the purest part of ours, whether you like to admit it or not. Our journey is based on changes. Without them, we’ll never grow.