Escape

Everyone needs an escape once in a while. This world is so imperfect sometimes that we have to find a way to recharge our batteries. Most of us want a quiet place, where your thoughts stop flowing like crazy maniacs and try to mess with you. It is a shelter of warmth and security, a mini “paradise” which allows you to escape reality or disappointment. And believe me, I’ve had my fair share of disappointments from people who I barely knew and people who were closest to me. There is nothing we can do about it other than trying to accept things as they are and be prepared for what’s to come. In other words, an escape place is essential to our mind. Some people search for it for years and others don’t realise that it’s just sitting there, right under their nose.

Ever since I was little I was drawn to the artistic side of life. I hated the logical point of view. I wanted to explore, to imagine, to comment and go beyond rational meaning. I was also drawn to drawing. I found this unexplainable joy whenever I would touch a pencil. If only did i know at that time just how much I would need drawing. As I grew up, I began to rely more and more on it. I was a bit of a loner back then, I didn’t mind it at first but at around 13 years old I began to worry about myself because every summer from 6th grade until the 8th grade I would be alone and drawing was the only thing that brought me happiness. I made comics of the person that I wanted to be, this powerful, confident, intelligent girl that could do anything she wanted without caring what others thought. Instead of thinking how lonely I was, I would just draw. My mind would stop shouting negativity as I was holding my pencil.

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After I entered high school for some reason I stopped drawing. I was no longer the lonely girl and I started to change, to shape into a better and more confident person. And so, I almost gave up drawing because I didn’t feel like I needed it anymore. How wrong was I… My senior year was probably the hardest year I’ve ever had to face. On one hand I wasn’t sure what I was going to do with my life and I was also going through some personal stuff too. One day though, everything changed. Somehow my passion for drawing came back and I was really nervous at first to pick up a pencil again, but I knew I had to do it. I questioned my ability to draw, of course, since it’s been a couple of years since I last made a proper sketch. I was scared that maybe I’ve lost it and I disappointment was written all over my faced as I realised how I’ve neglected a gift, a talent that got me through so many things. At that moment all I could think was “Okay, if I really lost my ability to draw I will do everything in my power to get it back.”

The thing is, when you love something that much you just can’t even process the possibility of it fading away from your grasp. I made my first few lines and from there, my mind stopped worrying. “I forgot how much I loved this” I thought. And from then on I couldn’t stop. Believe it or not, even with those years when I didn’t really practice my drawing, my skills were now better than ever. From then on, a new world was born, a world that will never disappear, a world which will never let me stop drawing ever again because if I really were to completely stop, it would be like losing the ability to breathe. Some people try their hardest to find their escape, and mine has been there all along but I was oblivious of its existence. “This is my escape” I whispered…

 

 

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PS: I have an Instagram dedicated to my drawings if you want to check it out @acourtofartanddreams 

The loveliest family on YouTube

In this day and age it is quite hard to find people who can truly be real. Sadly, there is still a lot of hate and judgement in this world which is now so fragile. Young generations don’t deserve to be surrounded by this fog of negativity. Yet, through all of this, there are still some bright lights. In my years of watching YouTubers, I’m not going to lie, I’ve stumbled upon a lot of people who weren’t that inspirational, some who used the platform to spread negative thoughts. For years and years I’ve searched for YouTubers who can give me strength, who can make me laugh, who can spread encouragement and creativity, and most of all, people who appreciate small things the most.

Lindy(Bubzbeauty), Zoe (Zoella), Alfie Deyes (PointlessBlog), Lilly (Superwoman) and Sasha Alsberg (Abookutopia) were actually among the only ones that I considered true, kind and inspirational from the numerous YouTubers I’ve watched over the past 3 years. That is until I found The Michalaks’ channel which at that time was still Hannah’s main channel. I completely fell in love with their little family. They never tried to be perfect, that wasn’t their purpose. I think this is why I love them so much. Their character, kind souls, funny jokes( YES STEF, I LOVE YOUR JOKES) and their unconditional love for small things and their son just warmed my heart. There is something special about this family and I feel incredibly lucky that I’ve had the privilege to watch their journey from the moment Grayson was born. e9ecf7ee1053f83096a78aa9a4082ba8

There aren’t words to describe how much they’ve inspired me to enjoy each moment, to appreciate art more and ultimately start my own YouTube channel. They genuinly love and appreciate every single one of their followers. We really need more people like them to make our day, who want to spread only love. Stef’s unique montages are something I’ve never seen before and Hannah’s kindness is just so bright. These people deserve everything the life has to offer and even more because they change people from all over the world. Hannah, Stef, you will never know how much a part of our lives you are and I hope that you will never stop doing what you love. I almost cried when I found out Hannah was pregnant because truly there isn’t a more deserving family than The Michalaks.

 

Spread ONLY love, NOT hate

 

PS: JUST WATCH THIS, IT WILL MAKE YOUR DAY

The Michalaks: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UC2Ex6mz9I0DS92uVoW6pfSg